The Man In The Mirror
I am referring to man as a species not as a sex as the practice I am going to talk about applies equally to both sexes. The process I want to talk about (not really…lol) is self-evaluation. I don’t think that there is anything that has more value in our quest for a healthy lifestyle than the inward look. The problem of course is that many times we might not like what we are seeing as is the case with me right now.
I was forced to once again begin this practice when something occurred in my life the other day that outright shocked me. It came in the form of someone that I considered a very important friend and more that exposed, once and for all, who they really are. It was not pretty at all. The thing is that they were always this way and I was involved with them so where does that leave me? You see so often we are so busy pointing the finger at someone else that we don’t stop to consider that we attract into our lives the thing we think about most, the thing we are. Now the good news is that I removed this person and others like them out of my life but not before an incredible amount of damage had been done. It would be very easy for me to blame them but the real truth is I invited it in to my life in the first place. I would also love to say that this behavior and thinking was isolated to my personal life but I have also experienced it in my business affairs. It is also not just one person or thing and the only common denominator is me! Wow, that sucks.
We can only kid ourselves for so long and then life comes along and if we are not being honest it slams it right in our faces. It is at this point that I have a choice. Do I continue to blame and point the finger at other’s or do I start looking at the root cause…ie: me? I have this bad habit of not seeing other’s for how they are but rather what they have the potential to become and I like seeing other people that way. I won’t change that about myself. Where I do need to change is how I see myself. You see I do exactly the same thing with me. I believe when it is self directed it is called self delusion.
Please don’t get me wrong, I am not into self emasculation or a masochist. I just feel and believe it is critically important to my goal to be physically, emotionally and spiritually healthy to be honest about where I am and in the recent past that was not a very good place. This evaluation does not come directly from me but from the types of people I was surrounding myself with.
The Journey Begins Again
So you might be wondering what was so traumatic that caused this abrupt reassessment of myself. Fair enough. I got an email the other day from someone and they told me I was to take care of their pet. I worded it that way on purpose. I received marching orders not a request for a favor. When I said no, I was subject to various insults and manipulation culminating in them telling me I either take the pet or it goes in the dump! Huh? Again the good news is I did not fall for it. The bad news is that this was a person I had been very close to at a point in my recent past and they would throw a defenseless animal in the dump, just because it was now inconvenient? What type of person must I have been to associate with that? See how this goes, I could stop at pointing the finger but one thing I have learned is that everytime I am pointing the finger at someone or something else there are three fingers pointing right back at me. Boy, wasn’t that the truth this time.
To make this relationship work I had set aside everything I want to stand for and never once walked away when I should have been running for the exit. Now I can say all day long that I was trying to help and be supportive and I was but at what cost to me? This, in my opinion, is the critical thinking necessary to escape from my flawed perceptions. I literally almost lost everything before I woke from my slumber. I have spent the last several months rebuilding my core group of people in my life and rebuilding my business. As I said this was not a one off thing, it had become a pattern and it also effected my business. To be truthful there is still much work to do but at least now there is a light at the end of the tunnel and it is no longer a train headed in my direction to wipe me out.
I can also say that based on the types of people I am attracting into my life now that the behaviors that were effecting me so negatively are no longer present. The other good news is that I saw the pattern sooner than I ever had in the past. I think that may be the trick. I don’t know if we ever “escape” ourselves. I think that may be a bit unrealistic. For me the best I am hoping for is to identify the behavioral pattern quicker and quicker over time so the fallout from my bad choices becomes less and less. Eventually I might not even get into these situations at all.
I Can’t See Me Clearly
This is the crux of my problem. I just don’t see myself as clearly as I would like to, at least not in the thick of it. That is why, for me, it is very important to judge myself based on the people I am associating with. I know I have said this before but it is just much easier to see what is wrong with me in other people…lol. So when I see something that is F#$@ed Up in someone else I can identify it. The next step, if they are a significant person in my life is to look at what I am doing to attract that behavior. The simple fact is that if the people that are in my life are doing mean and hurtful things it is not because I am the nicest person in the world. I know this for the truth as I was just hanging out with someone and realized that they were not being very nice and this was not a one time thing but a pattern. My solution this time was not to stick around but to get away from that person ASAP. See healthy people don’t hang out with unhealthy people.
So the moral of the story is this. If you find yourself involved with unhealthy people, their disease is not your problem and not yours to solve. Your problem is you and if you don’t address that problem nothing will change. The names and faces will change but the pain will continue on. That has been my experience. I encourage you that the next time you are eager to point the finger at someone else and what they are doing wrong, take some time and ask yourself if they are that screwed up why are you having a relationship with them? The answer might surprise you.
Till Next Time,
Glenn Hoepfl – Healthy Lifestyle – Healthy Abundant Living















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